Mother Reveals What She Found In Her Son's Phone After He Committed Suicide

Mother Reveals What She Found In Her Son's Phone After He Committed Suicide 

Kate McLoughlin and her son Zach who committed suicide

A mother whose popular son killed himself has revealed details of the note he wrote before he committed suicide. 

After 13 months since her son committed suicide, Kate McLoughlin has been handed back 19-year-old Zach's mobile phone - which he wrote his final, heartbreaking note on.

 After getting hold of his phone, the woman revealed that her handsome and popular child received 22 missed calls and dozens of distraught text messages from people as fears for his welfare grew.

 "The only thing Zach's phone revealed to me was just how much he was loved," said the mum, who lives in Melbourne, Australia.

 "The messages, pictures and videos only confirmed how much he loved life and filled it with joy, mischief and laughter, for himself and so many others.

"Aside from one message indicating he was having a s***ty day, there was absolutely nothing to hint that suicide was ever on the cards...let alone any indication of depression or sign of mental health struggles."

 She added: "Zach was surrounded by so much love, so much support and every possible resource available to help him through his problems. How I wish he had thrown himself into the arms of a loved one that night and not under a train."

Before Zach killed himself, Kate had seen him in the kitchen on the day of his death last March. He even asked her what was for dinner before heading out of the house, telling his mum he was going to play basketball with a friend.

 Hours later, police turned up at the house to inform Kate her son had taken his own life after writing a suicide note on his phone. In the note, the teen expressed love for his ex-girlfriend, encouraged his brothers to chase his dreams and thanked his parents for his "beautiful upbringing".

 He then bid them all goodbye, saying this world "wasn't for him".

 Before his suicide, Zach had watched a friend lose his life to bone cancer, after which two of his friends had killed themselves. But Kate said there were no clues or signs that her son was going to take his own life. She didn't know it was coming until the police knocked on her door.

 In a Facebook post on Monday, she wrote: "The night my baby took his life I was left with nothing of him to hold but three paper bags of evidence...his wallet & keys, the basketball he was supposed to shoot hoops with that night, the clothes they cut from his body, his baseball cap and one shoe.

"13 months later, after the closing of the Coronial Investigation, his phone has been returned. The phone he used that night to write his suicide note, the phone with 22 missed calls and just as many messages from his distraught mate trying to find him."

 She added: "My boy made a choice, when his doubts were high, his self worth low and his mind was clouded by what seemed an insurmountable number of challenges to overcome. Zach got lost in the loneliness and darkness of his own pain and believed that this world wasn't for him. How very, very wrong he was."

 "But in his search for peace Zach has left so much pain, so much emptiness and has altered the lives, hearts and minds of so many," she wrote. "His death is permanent, his future gone and absolutely nothing in the world will make this different."